{"id":13699,"date":"2020-01-13T14:27:08","date_gmt":"2020-01-13T13:27:08","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/kerstinhack.de\/?p=13699"},"modified":"2025-02-10T20:17:08","modified_gmt":"2025-02-10T19:17:08","slug":"when-dreams-burst-just-before-the-finish-line","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kerstinhack.de\/en\/wenn-traeume-kurz-vor-dem-ziel-platzen\/","title":{"rendered":"When dreams burst just before the finish line"},"content":{"rendered":"<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Have you ever had the experience of something beautiful being within your grasp and then falling through? That's exactly what I painfully experienced on a trip to New Zealand.... but then things turned out differently than expected.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img alt=\"\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"960\" height=\"720\" src=\"https:\/\/kerstinhack.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/79528102_3187031021313259_6001095852645416960_n.jpg\" class=\"wp-image-13700\" srcset=\"https:\/\/kerstinhack.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/79528102_3187031021313259_6001095852645416960_n.jpg 960w, https:\/\/kerstinhack.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/79528102_3187031021313259_6001095852645416960_n-300x225.jpg 300w, https:\/\/kerstinhack.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/79528102_3187031021313259_6001095852645416960_n-768x576.jpg 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 960px) 100vw, 960px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><em>A p\u0101ua shell in my hand<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">On my first day in New Zealand, I saw a beautiful, shimmering blue p\u0101ua shell at a friend's house and wished and even prayed that I would find one just like it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">A few days later, the time had come: I found a beautiful shell on an island beach and held it in my hand in amazement.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">But less than 10 seconds later, the guide said that you weren't allowed to take anything with you in this nature reserve. I asked:<em>\"Not even a shell.\"<\/em> He confirmed: <em>\"Yes, not even a shell!\"<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">When dreams burst<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">It was \"only\" a beautiful shell, but it almost brought tears to my eyes with disappointment. I had hoped, prayed....and then it seemed to work out. But it burst again when I was already holding the object of my wishes and prayers in my hands. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I've experienced this several times in my life: it seemed that I was close to having my prayers answered and then it fell through again. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<ul class=\"wp-block-list\">\n<li>After many years of endeavour, the <a href=\"https:\/\/down-to-earth.de\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer nofollow\">Publisher<\/a> finally started to rise, then it collapsed again. <\/li>\n\n\n\n<li>One man seemed to be the answer to my prayers after a long wait - and yet he disappeared from my life again. <\/li>\n\n\n\n<li>The new book <a href=\"https:\/\/down-to-earth.de\/shop\/leinen-los-kerstin-hack\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer nofollow\">Cast off<\/a> could now bring the breakthrough - but then fell short of expectations.  <\/li>\n<\/ul>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">The list of my almost-answers to prayers, almost-fulfilled dreams and almost-successful projects is long. The list of disappointments is just as long.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">It's bad when an idea doesn't work out. But it's even worse when a dream bursts just when fulfilment is within reach. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">When I put the mussel back on the line, I not only put a mussel in the gravel, but also the next bitter experience: <em>Now it's happened to me again.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">Hope continues after shattered dreams<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Hope dies last. Somehow it seems to lie deep within us not to want to give up hope. And so I couldn't help but ask God again and again over the next few weeks that I would find one after all.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Of course, I kept looking for p\u0101ua shells every time I went for a walk on the beach. But the only ones I saw were in towns. There, the shells were available in tourist shops, unnaturally polished and expensive. My own search was unsuccessful.  All I found on the beach was gravel.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img alt=\"\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"683\" src=\"https:\/\/kerstinhack.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/IMG_0966-1024x683.jpg\" class=\"wp-image-13703\" srcset=\"https:\/\/kerstinhack.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/IMG_0966-1024x683.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/kerstinhack.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/IMG_0966-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/kerstinhack.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/IMG_0966-768x512.jpg 768w, https:\/\/kerstinhack.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/IMG_0966-1536x1024.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/kerstinhack.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/IMG_0966-2048x1365.jpg 2048w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Sometimes it's all gravel<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ron Parrish, the author of a book about the whole<a href=\"https:\/\/www.amazon.de\/gp\/product\/B01N2UTF0J\/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&amp;camp=1638&amp;creative=6742&amp;creativeASIN=B01N2UTF0J&amp;linkCode=as2&amp;tag=downtoearth-21&amp;linkId=cee627cdb1f56bd7f9acc987d42526f8\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer nofollow\"> creative, practical, spiritual exercises<\/a> encourages us in his book to pray old prayers anew. Prayers that have been prayed for a long time, but then given up because they were not answered, to bring them to God again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">So I wrote my list of dozens of \"unsuccessful\" prayers in my diary and submitted my wishes and requests to God again. Not all of them. Just one at first. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I began by praying for the missing employees in my <a href=\"http:\/\/www.down-to-earth.de\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer nofollow\">Publishing team<\/a> on. I can't realise some of the things I dream about because I don't have the right people to do them. For years.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I walked along a wide sandy beach and dared to pray again: <em>\"Lord, I need support in organisation and marketing. Bring me together with the right people for this.\"<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Completely surprisingly, I found a small, beautiful p\u0101ua shell right after the \"Amen\". Petite. Half the size of my hand. I was touched to find it just as I dared to climb out of my frustration and lay my concerns before God again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">That touched me deeply - even at this particular time. God hears me. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">At the same time, I was honestly a little disappointed because it was so puny. Not as big as half a child's head as the one I had first seen and not half as big as the one I had to leave lying around. But I hadn't prayed for a big shell, just one at all.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I revised my prayer: <em>\"Thank you, sir, for this shell. But to be honest, I'd like a bigger one. I'm asking you to help me find another one.\" <\/em><br><br>The next day I had the inner impulse to go to a certain corner of the beach and climb over the rocks there. I found paua shell no. 2 in a crack in the rock, and it was really big. A few metres further on I found the next one. Then another one. And another one. One more beautiful than the other.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"720\" height=\"758\" src=\"https:\/\/kerstinhack.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/79821275_3187031121313249_7531877245535649792_n-e1578921969976.jpg\" alt=\"Kerstin Hack with Paua mussels\" class=\"wp-image-13701\" srcset=\"https:\/\/kerstinhack.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/79821275_3187031121313249_7531877245535649792_n-e1578921969976.jpg 720w, https:\/\/kerstinhack.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/79821275_3187031121313249_7531877245535649792_n-e1578921969976-285x300.jpg 285w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 720px) 100vw, 720px\" \/><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">In shellfish paradise.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Over the next few days, the beautiful shells fell into my hands almost every day. I ended up with so many that I gave a good dozen away to children at a campsite because I couldn't take them all with me.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Now the precious shells decorate my home. When I see them, I remember that God answers prayers, even if it sometimes takes much longer than I would like.\u00a0<br><br>And just a few weeks after the holiday, I got in touch with a young woman who was unable to continue her self-employment as a children's make-up artist due to corona. She supported me for two years with her expertise in publishing until she went back into self-employment. <br><br>When that happened, I was a little sad to lose such a good colleague again, but it no longer affected my faith and my trust that God meant well with me. <br><br>I was able to let go - albeit with some pain. And trust again that things would turn out differently. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">How do you experience that? <br>What gives you the strength and courage to keep hoping when dreams burst?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Please write me your thoughts. I'm looking forward to your comment. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">And: If you need support to finally let go of old pain and deep disappointments, I will be happy to support you with compassion and coaching. Experience <a href=\"https:\/\/kerstinhack.de\/en\/coaching\/\">here<\/a> more. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Es war &#8222;nur&#8220; eine sch\u00f6ne Muschel, doch mir trieb es vor Entt\u00e4uschung fast die Tr\u00e4nen in die Augen. Ich hatte gehofft, gebetet&#8230;.und dann schien es zu klappen. 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