{"id":2767,"date":"2014-06-12T09:04:39","date_gmt":"2014-06-12T07:04:39","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/kerstinpur.de\/?p=2767"},"modified":"2014-06-12T09:04:39","modified_gmt":"2014-06-12T07:04:39","slug":"god-knows-my-limits","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kerstinhack.de\/en\/gott-kennt-meine-grenzen\/","title":{"rendered":"God knows my limits"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"2014-05-17<\/a>Over the last few weeks, I\u2019ve been relatively calm, despite the huge challenge of completing the most important work on the boat by the end of July and raising the money to pay for it. Then yesterday, a few large bills arrived, one of which was 1,200 euros higher than I\u2019d estimated and budgeted for\u2026 and I really started to panic. I was afraid I wouldn\u2019t make it.<\/p>\n

This morning I was reading a devotional book \u2013 a classic \u201eAbide in Christ\u201c<\/em> I read something along the lines of what Andrew Murray said, that a storm rages outside and drives us closer inwards \u2013 towards the Father\u2019s heart. I then poured out my heart to Jesus. And although I prayed for a miracle regarding my finances, above all for the fact that I to him<\/em> that can get through, despite and in the face of his fear near<\/em> may be. <\/strong> That was important to me \u2013 being with him just as I am right now\u2026 \u2013 not as my ideal Christian self-image would sometimes like me to be: strong in faith and courageous. I am like that sometimes. But I wasn\u2019t like that this morning. And I wanted to be with God \u2013 just as I was. And I knew too: my God walks with me \u2013 right where I am right now.<\/p>\n

I then wrote to a dear friend:<\/p>\n

\u201eMy bank balance is dwindling by the day\u2026 not just the boat \u2013 but publishing costs too\u2026\".<\/em>
\nPlease pray for my heart, that it may remain with Jesus in the midst of and despite my fear.<\/em><\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Immediately after writing the email, I checked my account\u2026 and could hardly believe my eyes: the largest single donation for the ship to date had come through. It\u2019s a sum that really takes the pressure off \u2013 even though the major challenge, of course, remains. I am infinitely grateful.<\/p>\n

But even more than that, I am grateful that the timing of its arrival shows me: God knows and loves me. He knows my limits. And he knows just how much stress I can handle and bear right now\u2026 I wept with gratitude for the gift, but above all for his love. Oh yes \u2013 and seven more \u201efives\u201c turned up as well \u2013 six in cash, one from the sale of a second-hand book. I\u2019m grateful for that\u2026<\/p>\n

I am also grateful to a few professionals who are helping me.<\/p>\n